Friday, June 20, 2008
Summer
Well all,
Its basically summer for me- I still got prom and grad. I've looked back and YEAH I've gone ALOT- compare to gr.10. Kinda working on a issue in myself where if I should date a girl in my social circle I started to like recently. I'm going do it. Maybe not date her, but make it obvious and take the chance.
Its not hard, its not easy. Its an experience- I'll be fully into it. We'll see...don't expect anything other than to be REAL.
Zac
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Sunday, June 08, 2008
Update
Hi all,
I haven't been on in ages, actually coming back to see my growth. ALOT has happened- mentally, spiritually, and physically.
Lets start:
Mentally: Shit..where to begin- I think I'm awesome, I'm positive, I'm becoming more comfortable with myself.
Spiritually: I've gone on this big trek on innergame-its helped tons but guess what? In the last posting, I've realized I'm back to basics (its happened two-to-three times) its a great experience.
Physically: I've gotten maybe abit fatter? :) Seriously though, I may not be spectacular in shape- probaly abit worse- but I have gone back to shaolin kungfu (which ties everything together) as well as some energy work (yes..I'm a fucking hippie) ACCEPT.
Now this is this a blog about girls? Hell YES & NO!
Women push us to the max potential they can also destroy us. As in all things there needs to be balance. I need to give a Thank you list:
-Jen: my crush in gr.4 who put me through hell and back-only to see heaven through the clouds
-JT: starting mentor- you showed me something I never thought was possible- back then
-Johnny Soporno/Zan/Steve Piccus: I've only met Johnny S. in person in the group but all of you have helped me grow as a person in every way.
-Sean Messenger: What can I say...Johnny sent me the link as a recommendation and the last couple months with the UCP has helped me tons.
-Friends/Family: I can't give enough Thanks for your support- you've helped me when I needed ya, (mad props to my TO boys).
THANK YOU a bazillion times! :) and then some icecream.
Continuing...I can't say I'm a mad pimp/ hell I still haven't gotten a date (which I'm working on)- but theres one thing I know I like: helping others and thats what this blog is about. Its about me first helping myself giving reflection for my understanding/growth but its also about people who read this. It maybe inspiration, it could be insights- I don't know..I didn't want to help till I knew everything but I'll be real. No one knows everything, so I'm starting now.
On life- this is also a journal to myself as stated so I will give myself the props to say- hell I'm graduating within the month. Its ironic looking at my old posts- its actually childish when I look back. Straight dope- I thought what the fuck when I looked at them and smiled..HAH. Wow...Zac, you've grown alot I'm proud of me.
In the last while, I've made lots of friends- I ain't mr.popular, but as Johnny said and I'm starting to feel this, I'm an independent. I don't follow, I don't lead- I do whatever I want. Meaning I could do both, none, or oohh maybe one?! Scary :P. Its almost a surfer like Zen, very hippy dude...very.
I'm going out more..I'm actually not worried about routines/bs anymore- I like I talk (still working but its coming). I've also in community terms put innergame/outergame together again- you do need both- been on both sides of the fence. Yin/Yang..balance. Sean Messenger has helped me in this endeavor. One thing that almost guides me *Leave them better than you started- this doesn't need to be high energy, giggles or whatever. It could be just as easy as listening. Not looking like you do, actually ACTIVE LISTENING.
Another thing I learned was breaking that wall I made against people, yes..I was racially bullied, yes I was rejected...yes every bad experience and more! Now..fuck that, seriously. Everyone has their own little weird world, it takes BALLS to open up. Its something I still have trouble with but its getting easier everyday. No one has a fucking perfect world- it may appear that way, but everyone has their own issues, problems and sob stories. You know what?!
WE ARE ALL THE SAME BECAUSE OF THAT!!!!
Everything you hate in others is what you hate in yourself. Everything you Love in yourself others will Love you for- that being everything. Everything you think that makes you different is the same for everyone else- or at least they can relate. So I've broken that wall- and pushing. I'm fucking pushing to Love myself, and others around me.
It sounds BS, you may even say it sounds like "The Secret" mumbo jumbo. What you send out is what you get. Negative energy..no one cares (almost like when you have a fucked up day-one thing goes wrong and it spirals), positive- well everyone likes that- its beneficial for everyone. Positive thoughts GOOD :)
Now, I can ramble on and on- but I'll hopefully be able to break down my rants in more methodical order- something which hasn't changed since gr.9 :D. Where theres a will...and theres def. a damn way! :) But I'll cut off my rant here giving my strongest recommendation to visit
http://www.websitetoolbox.com/mb/gettinggreatgirls
Sean is Awesome! No affiliate shit...I use to want to be BIG in this community at some points, fuck that EGO bs. This is from the heart.
Namaste,
Zac
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Thursday, March 01, 2007
The Game and Life as I see it now.
Well, I'm waiting on a potential snowday tomorrow, got mixed emotions, its cool missing school then again I don't want to since I want to socialize and talk to this particular girl in my ancient history class. Whats this have to do with my views so far?
Since I left my private school I've grown tons, particularly in my paradigms, I keep getting something new in myself/game everyday its weird, I'm going start coining the term "revelation a day". But I seem to just see it now...I mean I use to think the community was good etc. Mystery was awesome, Style, I never hero-worshiped them but I respected them for being able to help me, which they have and haven't. The way I'm looking at the community now is its unnecessary there is a natural in everyone deep down, as demonstrated in my APB bootcamp a while back. People use lines/routines to hide behind so they DON"T put themselves on the line "sarge robot". They'll do anything and everything to avoid the real problem THEMSELVES. Yes..I will agree getting laid, makeouts, meetings are all awesome and can build confidence..hell I haven't had any, to be honest but I've made tremendous strides in my direction, LIFE. My end goal isn't instant results, its to become naturally attractive/charismatic. Now theres different ways to do everything such as going out every night/day which I don't have the luxury or willpower to. Then theres the one which will work directly on your beliefs, which I am. Everyday these days seems to be better and better, and old beliefs seem dumb, I remember kinda panicking to talk to the girl I mentioned before..shes not very social/quiet but cute I want to get to know her, if shes LSE well..I'll leave it be but I know she likes me so why not? I use to and to a degree now think its WEIRD talking to girls in school and being social, I haven't done any yet, but that..WEIRD feeling is going away and each day seems easier to talk, which I will. Its like chipping the old belief away. Now the main problem is logically I KNOW I get everything..hell I been making breakthroughs everyday knowledge and understanding but my inaction seems to be a challenge..its getting easier mind you.
This is a big ramble but my view summarized is TRUST yourself..you know everything you need. I'm working on it and well..its a process and its coming. In the end..be your TRUE self, be genuine, its not game its life, how you work the game is how you treat life its that simple..I want a honest, fun life which is an adventure everyday. Everyone is different but thats my view. Screw the lines..screw the masks, screw the crutches..put yourself on the line in anything you do, since it'll spill into other areas, like my inaction is outside the game..been working on that and its going away.
Best,
Dragon
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Monday, February 26, 2007
Update
Well...Since Sept I've gone through alot of growing, through innergame. I'm still confused on alot of things, but then again I'm seeing the big picture also, though its clear and vague at the same time. My actual game is going up and down still, since I got a SP talking to girsl @ school somehow and my city just sucks for cold approaching..I gotta do something about the 2. I also want to tackle going solo now on..I accept it I have to do it.
I was having a discussion with a friend about what my handle meant, funny as it is I'm taking right after my role model in history to a degree. It has its benefits and downsides, but my main problem now seems to be ACTION. Actually just doing it, I'm a Sleeping Dragon now...I have been for the last couple of months, I've grown alot though. But I need to be active and action orientated, thats the only way to do things..Its not hard but hard the same time. I know from past experience I'm natural once I start talking..I just havent pushed myself another SP of mine.
I need to take care of all these SPs that are popping out through facing them head on in the field and innergame work. Logically..I can say I get it, I'll take it so far to say its SIMPLE. But I keep finding out I have more hangups about myself than I thought. Its all in the journey.
I'll be posting more, now on, aiming for weekly.
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Tuesday, October 03, 2006
September
Well all,
Been praticing on school game/social circles and can I say the takeover is coming ;). So far I got a teacher and other students qualifying to me, hell I gotta start chasing some tail. Been doing onlinegame also and rolling in some #'s and looking to hookup with them. I'm also looking to host a Hallowen party with probaly 40+ people. I'll be adding FRs soon.
Till then, no more excuses dudes, get out and pratice!
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Sunday, September 03, 2006
Bring on the Year!
Yes gents, the summer is ending but what a awesome summer that was I must admit. I'm disappointed it went by so fast since...( well I'm going miss the Asian women in TO- where I am theres none)- Damn you J..Damn you! :P.
Seriously though with the summer ending I'm glad of the progress I made. Not as much as I like to but hell who's complaining? I got a whole year to pratice more! New school too along with some nice subjects. Been pimpin out the pad or will, new wardorbe is in session, my game can be better but can't complain (I can go for girls 4-6 yrs oldder than me). All I can say is BRING THE YEAR ON!
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Monday, August 28, 2006
See and Go
"Don't chase, reel them in like your fishing"
"Its still catching them so who cares"
These 2 sentences were imprinted in my mind from hanging out with my pals in TO as were having a conversation in the middle of the mall. That day was probaly the most messed up day I had for a outing and praticing. As a warmup game since I needed a boost for my game I made a bet with one friends we'll call Tall I had to approach at least 5 girls in the mall before the 30 min were up.
This was in order to get my AA out since I still had a bit from not praticing a yr, but doing doubletime in the summer (week left- make the triple now). I appraoched a pregnant women for no reason since I wanted to get it done. To my unbelief I had a good conversation getting 3 IOIs which I wasn't going for but meh. Next was the Mom daughter set I went for because I thought the daughter was cute. The conversation was basically off directions me talking to the mom to disarm her and I somehow attracted her too which wasn't my intention. The daughter had a huge frown on her face which I can still see since its funny to think off. I busted her and she frowned more- though I know she was faking it.
The other 3 were quick since 2 didn't speak english..I gotta find away to communicate with foriegn girls. I know they like me too. Last set I was going go for but hesistated I should have went for since I really liked her, Tall went to her before me though. So I settled with 1 last one which was decent missing a chance with a HB. O well. Learned somthing, its gone into play too now. I like I go, no questions. Got a year coming up for that. This was only the beginning of the day.. I think I did maybe 5 more. But this was last week.
With the summer ending I came home to shop for some clothes. I'll be back in TO Wed for final preperation for the new school I'm going too.
Meantime heres a song which goes with the see and go mentality.
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