Sunday, June 08, 2008
Update
Hi all,
I haven't been on in ages, actually coming back to see my growth. ALOT has happened- mentally, spiritually, and physically.
Lets start:
Mentally: Shit..where to begin- I think I'm awesome, I'm positive, I'm becoming more comfortable with myself.
Spiritually: I've gone on this big trek on innergame-its helped tons but guess what? In the last posting, I've realized I'm back to basics (its happened two-to-three times) its a great experience.
Physically: I've gotten maybe abit fatter? :) Seriously though, I may not be spectacular in shape- probaly abit worse- but I have gone back to shaolin kungfu (which ties everything together) as well as some energy work (yes..I'm a fucking hippie) ACCEPT.
Now this is this a blog about girls? Hell YES & NO!
Women push us to the max potential they can also destroy us. As in all things there needs to be balance. I need to give a Thank you list:
-Jen: my crush in gr.4 who put me through hell and back-only to see heaven through the clouds
-JT: starting mentor- you showed me something I never thought was possible- back then
-Johnny Soporno/Zan/Steve Piccus: I've only met Johnny S. in person in the group but all of you have helped me grow as a person in every way.
-Sean Messenger: What can I say...Johnny sent me the link as a recommendation and the last couple months with the UCP has helped me tons.
-Friends/Family: I can't give enough Thanks for your support- you've helped me when I needed ya, (mad props to my TO boys).
THANK YOU a bazillion times! :) and then some icecream.
Continuing...I can't say I'm a mad pimp/ hell I still haven't gotten a date (which I'm working on)- but theres one thing I know I like: helping others and thats what this blog is about. Its about me first helping myself giving reflection for my understanding/growth but its also about people who read this. It maybe inspiration, it could be insights- I don't know..I didn't want to help till I knew everything but I'll be real. No one knows everything, so I'm starting now.
On life- this is also a journal to myself as stated so I will give myself the props to say- hell I'm graduating within the month. Its ironic looking at my old posts- its actually childish when I look back. Straight dope- I thought what the fuck when I looked at them and smiled..HAH. Wow...Zac, you've grown alot I'm proud of me.
In the last while, I've made lots of friends- I ain't mr.popular, but as Johnny said and I'm starting to feel this, I'm an independent. I don't follow, I don't lead- I do whatever I want. Meaning I could do both, none, or oohh maybe one?! Scary :P. Its almost a surfer like Zen, very hippy dude...very.
I'm going out more..I'm actually not worried about routines/bs anymore- I like I talk (still working but its coming). I've also in community terms put innergame/outergame together again- you do need both- been on both sides of the fence. Yin/Yang..balance. Sean Messenger has helped me in this endeavor. One thing that almost guides me *Leave them better than you started- this doesn't need to be high energy, giggles or whatever. It could be just as easy as listening. Not looking like you do, actually ACTIVE LISTENING.
Another thing I learned was breaking that wall I made against people, yes..I was racially bullied, yes I was rejected...yes every bad experience and more! Now..fuck that, seriously. Everyone has their own little weird world, it takes BALLS to open up. Its something I still have trouble with but its getting easier everyday. No one has a fucking perfect world- it may appear that way, but everyone has their own issues, problems and sob stories. You know what?!
WE ARE ALL THE SAME BECAUSE OF THAT!!!!
Everything you hate in others is what you hate in yourself. Everything you Love in yourself others will Love you for- that being everything. Everything you think that makes you different is the same for everyone else- or at least they can relate. So I've broken that wall- and pushing. I'm fucking pushing to Love myself, and others around me.
It sounds BS, you may even say it sounds like "The Secret" mumbo jumbo. What you send out is what you get. Negative energy..no one cares (almost like when you have a fucked up day-one thing goes wrong and it spirals), positive- well everyone likes that- its beneficial for everyone. Positive thoughts GOOD :)
Now, I can ramble on and on- but I'll hopefully be able to break down my rants in more methodical order- something which hasn't changed since gr.9 :D. Where theres a will...and theres def. a damn way! :) But I'll cut off my rant here giving my strongest recommendation to visit
http://www.websitetoolbox.com/mb/gettinggreatgirls
Sean is Awesome! No affiliate shit...I use to want to be BIG in this community at some points, fuck that EGO bs. This is from the heart.
Namaste,
Zac
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Great Post. Women do push us to the limits you're right. But if it helps us become better people at the end of it then its all good!
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